超级懒猫

无语

2010-03-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

以前看到CPF，以为是CFP；现在看到CFP，以为是CPF。。。

9 Days in Egypt

2010-01-11T00:05:00.006+08:00

埃及艳照新鲜出炉。怀着无比兴奋的心情去，又怀着无比激动的心情回。走马观花的鉴赏了无数的壁画，神庙，浩瀚的沙漠和尼罗河绰绰风姿。但直到今天，耳边却还萦绕着小贩“One dollar”的叫卖声，沙漠露营篝火晚会的鼓声，镜头进沙的吱吱声，还有Hany的那句“你们会想念我的”。历历在目的，却是路边无数的流浪猫和烂尾楼，无处不在的AK47旅游警察，阿拉伯的数字（正宗），和四个蒙面女侠飒爽的英姿。9天的回忆很丰富，心里面默念：我还要出去玩！

Cairo也可以称为雾都了，细沙+薄雾，能见度也只有2、30米；

传说中的萨拉丁城堡没进去很遗憾，留给下次吧；

开罗的司机开车真的很猛，这才叫见缝插针；虽然车很破，但司机叔叔很负责；

开罗旅社的“海鸥面包”大家都很爱；楼下5块钱一个的Kebab汉堡超美味；

地铁女车厢进了2次，第一次抱头第二站冲出，第二次自投罗网用毛巾蒙头做了坏人，感觉比进女厕紧张；

“How old are you？”“Yes~~Yes”；

沙漠Safari处处都是Surprise，头顶探照灯，吃到了最美味的炭烧鸡；虽然语言不通，但心里面很感激开吉普的阿拉伯F4大哥们；

中国人应该更加友好一些，对外国人也好，对本地人也好，Letting our guards down a little bit；

发烧睡在Luxor超不爽的旅店床上度过了2010年的新年；不过很感谢大家的关照，特别是Alva悉心的照顾，让偶第二天就退出了“小废废”的行列；

Luxor Bob Marley hostel is dirty; its owner was always trying to pass the buck to the travelers when something goes wrong, even yelled to us; we felt unsafe staying there;

法语的声光Show和阿斯旺High Dam花了点冤枉钱；

最后大家都放弃了砍价（狂砍）；

Aswan的国际机场只有我们5个人check-in；

“One dollar, one dollar”，“1 for 5 dollar，no？5 for 1 dollar”，“哈比比”，“呀啦呀啦”；

废片超级多；

埃及人很友好，虽然难免会瞄着你的钱袋 :-)

据说，I'm a lucky man；

想念Hany同学；舍命带我们去萨拉丁城堡的司机；沙漠中的阿拉伯F4和韩国志愿者Jin；Luxor的导游老爹，happy new year；开到Aswan的司机可爱的默罕默德同学（police man, rubbish, money money money）；

Susu很可爱，而且这次有了个新名字——“天线宝宝”；

偶像很能干，又能计划，又能砍价，又能辩论，套Alva的话“我们都叫她偶像”；

美丽的公帐引力极大，引无数埃人尽骆驼（可惜没能打折啊），而且是最后一个“挂掉”；

Alva同学尽显“小废废”本色，不过一直在照顾我，真的很感动；

最后，一定不辜负大家的希望，早日跪拜大神。

另友情TK链接同去两位女侠的picasa:
http://picasaweb.google.com/chensu0714
http://picasaweb.google.com/vickiwang810

无题

2009-11-11T20:26:00.000+08:00

看到同住的Kwoon lim正在为病怏怏Joshua煮晚餐，我称赞他说，不愧是哥们儿啊。他回答道：没什么嘛，顺手牵羊而已嘛。

总统府一日游

2009-10-20T13:06:00.005+08:00

关键词：高尔夫球场，植物园，稀世珍宝，没看到丹哥，热

图解CUDA中用多线调度执行来隐藏内存访问延迟的机制

2009-09-17T17:05:00.040+08:00

最近在捣鼓CUDA，实现的几个小算法速度能提高到40～50x单线CPU的程度。可惜现在这边弄这个的人不多，基本没有“真人交流”。希望今后能用来做一些实际的项目，发挥一下潜能。嘿嘿。

最近应该会写一些心得，记录一下学习过程。我其实是一直有心做这样的事情，只是懒…… 从今天开始，哈哈。

图解CUDA中用多线调度执行来隐藏内存访问延迟的机制

GPU和device RAM之间带宽虽宽（如GTX285的150GB/s)，不过内存访问延迟依旧很大（400～600 cycles)。CPU用cache可以很好的解决内存延迟；不过GPU由于要处理的通常是大规模的数据集，源数据的locality或许并不高，即便加上很大的data cache效果也不一定好，所以索性放弃了data cache，换而采用用户可控的shared memory来开发data locality。最重要的，虽然GPU的一个处理器(SM - Streaming Multiprocessor)同时只能执行一个warp的线程(32个）,但却可以容纳大量的活动线程(active threads <= 1024)。当一个warp由于访问内存而被阻塞时，SM可以马上转为执行其他ready的warp，直到其被内存访问阻塞。只要这样转一圈的时间（执行完一圈其他的warps再转回来到第一个被阻塞的warp的时间）大于600 cycle的延迟，这个延迟就被隐藏了。

下图示意了内存访问延迟不能被完全隐藏的情况。假设SM上只有4个warp，他们需要从内存里面读取数据，在上面计算一把，循环这个过程。当然，我们也可以看成每个warp计算一次就终止了，之后新的warp会产生出来，代替原来那个warp的位置。从图里面很容易看出来虚线部分的latency是怎么被隐藏的；也很容易看出来因为每个warp的计算不够长，所以没有能够隐藏掉所有的latency。

放到现有的G200的architecture上来，每个SM最多1024个active thread，也就是32个warp。每个warp执行一个基本指令需要4个cycle。也就是说，要隐藏600 cycles需要每个warp平均执行 600/4/32 = 4.69个基本指令。这就是为什么推荐compute to memory ratio至少大于5的原因。这还是建立在理想的1024个active thread的情况下的。如果SM上thread少，这个比例还要提高。

RIP

2009-07-01T20:33:00.004+08:00

关上灯，耳机中响起《gone too soon》的旋律。歌声中夹杂的气息，呼吸声，点点的喉音，一切听起来都那么清晰，那么近，就像那个人还在耳边歌唱，还没有离去。

我们的这个时代，没有披头士，没有猫王，但是却很幸运的有MJ。他其实一直都是一个天真的孩子。只是，这个世界太复杂。May you rest in peace，默默的，祝福。

C code for Confidence level computation for BER testing

2009-06-15T16:08:00.007+08:00

Article is "statistical confidence levels for estimating error probability".

The first function calculates the confidence level (CL) given the number bit errors measured (n), the total number of bits tested (N), and the expected BER (ph).


// CL = 1 - (\Sigma^{0}_{N}(n * ph)^k/(k!)) * e^{-n * ph}
double solve_CL_from_N_n_ph(unsigned N, double n, double ph)
{
 double emnp = exp(-n * ph);
 double sum = 1;
 double product = 1;
 for(unsigned k = 1; k <= N; k++)
 {
  product *= (n * ph / k);
  sum += product;
 }
 sum *= emnp;
 return(1 - sum);
}

The second function computes the minimum number of bits that need to be tested to confirm a certain confidence level (CL) of an expected BER (ph). If the number of bit errors measured upon receiving of such number of bits is less than N, the hypothesis is confirmed positively. The formula to compute n given N greater than 0 is mathematically hard to solve. This function solves by trying out different values of n in a binary search manner using the first function (which is reverse of the function in question) until n is converged to a certain extent.


double solve_n_from_ph_CL_N(double ph, double CL, unsigned N)
{
  if(N==0)
    return(-log(1-CL)/ph);
  else
  {
    // solve n using binary search, based on "solve_CL_from_N_n_ph"
    double upper_n = N/ph * max(100, N), // enlarge at least 100 times
           lower_n = 100000,    // at least 100000 data
           cur_n = upper_n, next_n;
    double min_interval = 100;  // minimum internal to break the search
    while(1)
    {
      double cur_CL = solve_CL_from_N_n_ph(N, cur_n, ph);
      if(cur_CL >= CL) // if calculated value is more confident, try to reduce n
      {
        upper_n = cur_n;
        next_n = lower_n + (upper_n - lower_n)/2;
      } else
      {
        lower_n = cur_n;
        next_n = upper_n - (upper_n - lower_n)/2;
      }
      if(fabs(next_n - cur_n) < min_interval)
        break;
      cur_n = next_n;
    }
    return(cur_n);
  }
}

2009-01-27T13:48:00.001+08:00

罗俊同学的口头禅：cheese我了。

2009-01-27T13:47:00.002+08:00

What's best of being an Christian?

You can do anything you want. In the end, you just confess and get forgiveness from the GOD.

Ng

2009-01-21T20:20:00.002+08:00

Ng不是not good，而是“黄”，新加坡人很多姓这个的。Ng是2个辅音字母，很多人读不出来，实际就读N。大街上老远看到一个熟人姓Ng的，大叫Mr N，喊破嗓子也听不见。哦，不对，不可能喊破嗓子。

还有姓Gn的，这个不会发了。

X Fair Price

2009-01-18T14:01:00.002+08:00

刚知道Jurong Point新开了家Fair Price，因为规模大，名字也不一样，叫X Fair Price。听起来觉得挺别扭，总觉得和ex-wife很像。遂感叹新加坡真是昔非今比啊。

2009-01-09T11:10:00.000+08:00

新加坡最繁华的路叫乌贼路。

Chat Log

2008-09-22T21:17:00.002+08:00

Magi：想想怎么回答学生问题……
Ryler：恩……就说一般的文件都有文件头，meta data之类的，这个没有，而且Google不到；其实主要是Google不到。所以应该是用户自定义的文件。内容嘛，只有鬼知道。
Magi：D这个回答好啊，developer就是诡异啊。
Magi：今年Yang kanyan和Yu renjun也要结婚了。
Ryler：啊！他们是gay? 没看出来……现在中国gay可以结婚了？
Magi：晕，我说错了。各自跟各自老婆结。钻牛角尖你的脑筋很快的嘛……

无题

2008-09-22T20:42:00.005+08:00

我知道，blog不是日记，日记是写给自己看的。不过，这些东西，一旦传到网上，就再也丢不了了。日记不行。答应为你写歌，可如今歌喉已不在，哪怕唱出来，也不会动人吧。

$songs[0]

2008-09-15T02:06:00.004+08:00

It's My Life (lyrics)

Songwriters: Bon Jovi, Jon; Martin, Max; Sambora, Richard S;

This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down

It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!

小方块和小蛋壳

2008-09-07T11:43:00.004+08:00

有人说，Wall-E是2008年最浪漫的影片。小方块好奇却又胆怯，但怀着只想要牵手的单纯，勇敢得差点粉身碎骨；小蛋壳一开始很白很暴力，后来却为旦夕中的小方块放弃自己的使命（directive）。其实，“他”是“她”或者“她”是“他”也说不定；他们之间到底是友情，还是爱情也说不定。浪漫不一定在爱人之间，为了彼此而超越自我的勇敢，就是最终极的浪漫了。无论在天荒地老的地球垃圾场，还是梦幻的星空中。

某人说，小蛋壳完全就是ipod啊。一说之下恍然大悟。乔布斯本来就是Pixar的老板（founder，其实是买过来的）啊。有眼光。

一个星期

2008-05-19T15:58:00.002+08:00

再多的话也表达不出心中的悲痛，5月19日2点28分，在新加坡低头为受难的和幸存的人们祈祷。在生命面前，什么都变得不重要了。活着的人们，更没有理由不珍惜自己身边的亲人和朋友了，更没有理由自暴自弃了。愿天国的天空同样的蓝，鲜花同样的鲜艳。

Laptop build-in camera distortion problem

2008-04-22T15:04:00.005+08:00

If you ever used laptop build-in camera for video conferencing, you will probably notice that your face is a bit distorted and not as pretty as the one inside a mirror. Actually, the same distortion happens for almost any cameras when the subject -- your face positions too close to them. For web cameras, wide-angle lens is used to jam in more environment, your face turns out to be even more funny.

Now that not everyone likes this distortion, and maybe it's an interesting application to flatten it. Assuming computation complexity is not a problem, it is possible to adjust each frame of image to de-distort it according to camera model and parameters before generating the video stream. An even more interesting approach is to build an accurate 3D model of your face, and dynamically manipulate it according to your facial expressions (while leaving less distorted, less important back ground as is). You can ask the software to pre-build your face model (not including hair of course) from several pictures of different angle. Or using a multi camera system, i.g., 3, from the left, center, and right side, to build it dynamically. This link shows a similar application using a single face picture. It's for fun, but surely shows the possibilities.

Thesis

2008-04-16T20:01:00.003+08:00

Finally got the thesis writing done. The same old results, yet the procedure was full of struggling.

There's the saying that in order to do great things, you must aim high; another saying that the thousand miles journey starts with a single step forward. I guess I didn't really achieve a balance between these two, aiming too high, without a plan, only to discourage myself from stepping forward step by step. After all, I'm a normal person. But still, many great things are done by the normals.

"Welcome to the real-world, lad, where anything that is unthinkable is possible."

American Size of Stomach

2007-12-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

I've been to America and got a rough idea about people's appetite there. For example, in McDonald's, a burger is about 1.5 times the size of a same one in Singapore. Yet I saw a guy swallowed two within 1 minute with one on each hand. A separate order of coke in another restaurant is 30cm tall. And I had to take away nearly the whole main course of a 20 dollar sea food order, just after finishing the soup and appetizer. This is no kidding. In doubt, try this one!

Cafe' Cartel, at Plaza Singapura. We went there for dinner on the way back from a Greek sculpture exhibition in the national museum. Five of us, two hadn't had lunch at all, another two had some light snack, in order to meet our meeting schedule. We walked in, already near half death out of starving and exhaustion.

HQ had been there before, he advocated the flagship "pork ribs", depicted in the picture below, without mentioning the doze. I ordered steak for a change of other 4 serves of pork ribs. The steak came first, normal sized 15x7 cm2 piece, plus some chips and vegetable, good for me. After another 10 minutes, the pork ribs finally showed up. Everyone's jaw dropped to the necks. They are not pork ribs, but piano boards (PB)! My steak was less than 1/5 of each PB, with the same price... To close, two of our usual big stomachs never felt full before, in a status without lunch, crashed upon this. One had to ask me to finish some leftovers, another one swept the whole, bearing the pain of standing up with a exploding belly for the rest of the day.

Mystery of life - INFJ

2007-11-14T11:26:00.000+08:00

Starting job hunting recently, I realize it's really important to know myself better and identify a suitable career path I'm comfortable and passionate about. The first step, analyzing my personality -- resulted in the most rare INFJ (Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging) type, which is codenamed "idealist". Some quotations of this type are pasted below. I've already chosen the most suitable cuts, but still it turns out to be long. I'll try to highlight the central phrases or sentences describing what I am :-)

INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are usually gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and they don't believe in compromising their ideals.

They are generally "doers" as well as dreamers. This rare combination of vision and practicality often results in INFJs taking a disproportionate amount of responsibility in the various causes to which so many of them seem to be drawn.

Most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear outgoing and genuinely interested in people. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious "soul mates."

They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it （欣慰啊）. Uncanny gifted, INFJs may well have the clearest insights of all the types into the motivations of others, for good and for evil.

They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger.

In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. In their own way, INFJs are just as much "systems builders" as are INTJs; the difference lies in that most INFJ "systems" are founded on human beings and human values, rather than information and technology.

Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement. (我最喜欢的句子，有前途啊，小伙 :-D)

INFJs generally have the following traits:
* Intuitively understand people and situations
* Idealistic
* Highly principled
* Complex and deep
* Natural leaders
* Sensitive and compassionate towards people
* Service-oriented
* Future-oriented
* Value deep, authentic relationships
* Reserved about expressing their true selves
* Dislike dealing with details unless they enhance or promote their vision
* Constantly seeking meaning and purpose in everything
* Creative and visionary
* Work logically and rationally
* Usually have good communication skills, especially written
* Take their commitments very seriously
* Have very high expectations for themselves and others (both a strength and weakness)
* Good listeners

Weakness:
* Tendency to hold back part of themselves
* Not good with money or practical day-to-day life necessities （怪不得INFJ薪资低，好在I don't really care...）
* Extreme dislike of conflict and criticism

I now have a clearer mind of the type of place I can be really happy to work for, which holds a larger vision and moral goal (to transform IT technology to everyday life convenience) rather than merely "making money", has good public image, encourages and values personal contribution, provides certain degree of independence. Seeking...

As a friend, I encourage you to take the test at http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp and follow this link http://www.personalitypage.com/home.html to find a comprehensive description of your personality type, both to know yourself and let others know you better.

One's personality can change over time, either due to the past experience or personal effort for a more preferable one. However, the one we posses now holds explanations to a lot of whys, and help us to understand, accept and proud of what we are. It's a sound and good starting base for future directions of our personal development.

Thank you my dear friend

2007-11-04T19:18:00.000+08:00

I'm so moved to see this on your site. Thank you for remembering.

Here's another photo of good memory back in 2003:

Blog migration

2007-11-04T19:00:00.000+08:00

I just finished importing posts from my other blog 电脑怪猫 here to my main blog. The previous separation of techniques related stuff to the other blog was due to blogger's lacking of labeling support.

ISE support for Trimaran, A How-to

2007-10-22T18:39:00.000+08:00

The tool is about to finish, and will be released to the public shortly. With the finish of it, my time as a Ph.D student is also approaching its end. What I have to do next is writing up the thesis and going outside to the big wild world. I hope other researchers in the field of custom architectures can benefit from my papers and this tool. Doing open-source is always one of my dreams, and this tool is something I've done towards that way...

Here is a link for the document in edit (requiring a google account):
http://docs.google.com/Doc?id=dg7t3rmx_24hdznjn

The software will be released with a set of benchmarks after thorough test (now partially).

Poor students in SoC

2007-09-02T20:43:00.001+08:00

The whole school of computing has just moved to a new site. Despite of some small inconveniences of the new location (such as transportation, freezing and irregularly shaped office, no cellphone signal coverage, etc), one rule has been posed in every research lab - "NO FOOD OR DRINK ALLOWED". This is because instead of using plastic floor, light colored carpet is now covering every inch of the lab turf. I'm not sure whether the policy maker has also noticed the fact that, dark muddy footprints are already everywhere during the raining season, if so, maybe we will be informed to use our bare feet. On the contrary, I have never seen any food spread or drink spilling in the old lab. But ok then, Singapore has had plenty of places not allowing food/drinks (bus, mrt), just plus one place we're working for more than 8 hours per day, there is no big deal, really. This is not the end, though.

A few days ago, the head of the department disseminated an email clarifying this new policy, he said, he wants to use it to push students to the pantry where they can eat/drink and at the same time talk about their research with one another more. That is good. However, when we headed to the pantry, we all stuck at the entrance:

Face off by Alva

2007-07-24T03:47:00.000+08:00

牛就一个字，我只说一次。

East coast outing

2007-07-23T20:57:00.000+08:00

转眼间来新加坡已经5年了。在筹划5年庆的同时，大家也忍不住先出来活动一把。小绿说从来没有去过东海岸，虽然上班在同一个地铁站下……东海岸我们来了。

下午准时出发，迟到半个小时到达Bedok地铁站，顺利和Staul、小绿会合，加上我，埃瓦和WT，刚好5个人，不能打Taxi。出去后先问路，一群aunty商量了半天，告诉我们对面坐31路。车子蜿蜒的开了10多站，下车后在一个好心的aunty带领下辗转到达久违的东海岸边。

话说东海岸是专门供人们运动休闲的，狭长的海岸线边上，依次排列着沙滩，人行道，自行车/旱冰道和树林草地。单排轮旱冰，自行车和跑步游泳是这里的主要运动休闲方式。此外，岸边还可以烧烤，搭帐篷或者租房间过夜，还有很多著名的海鲜餐厅。总之呢，除了沙滩太小，海水不蓝，确实是周末的好去处。暂时介绍这些。

我们的主要活动：骑车。附加活动：Staul带的Frisbee。小绿本来要溜旱冰，不过胆小爬摔，就没有勉强他。骑车，2个小时8块钱，结束时送2瓶水。埃瓦开始时就要要了2瓶，结束时租车的人忘记了又给了2瓶，结果全部放到我的书包里面，那个重啊。我们沿着海岸线向东一直骑，这一骑才知道，原来东海岸是很长的一片，大概20分钟还没有到头，也就是说至少4、5公里了（在新加坡4、5公里的份量还是很足的）。回程后稍作休息，开始frisbee。我负责照相，结论：埃瓦动作千篇一律，Staul动作最帅。玩了一会儿，天色渐暗，在饥寒交迫中一行人艰难的爬到“无招牌”吃饭。对了，前面还骑车路过发现一片可以玩冲浪的地方，冲浪板加上空中迅速拉动的绳索，很是刺激。还有可爱的小孩若干，包括埃瓦。和从大到小各种狗狗。写不动了，太晚了。。。

Shifting

2007-07-15T02:26:00.000+08:00

又是一年搬家时，每年7月，狂风不止，阴雨绵绵，正直搬家的好日子。正所谓每年一搬，年年都住新房子，心情怎能不好。不过呢，新的是我们，倒不一定是房子。吃够了上上次搬家时候用的出租车队的苦，这次请了搬家公司的小货车以及司机小胖，另外高价雇佣了PhD肌肉男民工若干，浩浩荡荡开往心中的那片净土——油池。这次的新家是真的新，看图说话。

New life

2007-07-07T15:22:00.002+08:00

去到新的地方，遇到新的人，开始新的生活，一定会感觉轻松惬意吧。就和自己刚到这边的时候一样，空气是清新的，阳光是透明的，音乐是轻快的，步伐是跳跃的。把过去的烦恼都抛掉了，每天给你打电话都想和你分享新的体验，多希望你在身边，一起经历这些。Jeff的歌中说“有了爱，一颗心从此好安定”。那么多年来，如果说有什么没有变，或者说有什么变得越来越坚定了，就是想要和你一同分享生命中喜悦的心情吧。马上要启程了，别忘了和我说身边的事情，给我看照片，好好吃饭，早点困告，一切都会好的。

2007-07-07T15:01:00.000+08:00

THE GIFT OF THE MAGI

by O. Henry

One dollar and eighty-seven cents. That was all. And sixty cents of it was in pennies. Pennies saved one and two at a time by bulldozing the grocer and the vegetable man and the butcher until one's cheeks burned with the silent imputation of parsimony that such close dealing implied. Three times Della counted it. One dollar and eighty- seven cents. And the next day would be Christmas.

There was clearly nothing to do but flop down on the shabby little couch and howl. So Della did it. Which instigates the moral reflection that life is made up of sobs, sniffles, and smiles, with sniffles predominating.

While the mistress of the home is gradually subsiding from the first stage to the second, take a look at the home. A furnished flat at $8 per week. It did not exactly beggar description, but it certainly had that word on the lookout for the mendicancy squad.

In the vestibule below was a letter-box into which no letter would go, and an electric button from which no mortal finger could coax a ring. Also appertaining thereunto was a card bearing the name "Mr. James Dillingham Young."

The "Dillingham" had been flung to the breeze during a former period of prosperity when its possessor was being paid $30 per week. Now, when the income was shrunk to $20, though, they were thinking seriously of contracting to a modest and unassuming D. But whenever Mr. James Dillingham Young came home and reached his flat above he was called "Jim" and greatly hugged by Mrs. James Dillingham Young, already introduced to you as Della. Which is all very good.

Della finished her cry and attended to her cheeks with the powder rag. She stood by the window and looked out dully at a gray cat walking a gray fence in a gray backyard. Tomorrow would be Christmas Day, and she had only $1.87 with which to buy Jim a present. She had been saving every penny she could for months, with this result. Twenty dollars a week doesn't go far. Expenses had been greater than she had calculated. They always are. Only $1.87 to buy a present for Jim. Her Jim. Many a happy hour she had spent planning for something nice for him. Something fine and rare and sterling--something just a little bit near to being worthy of the honor of being owned by Jim.

There was a pier-glass between the windows of the room. Perhaps you have seen a pier-glass in an $8 flat. A very thin and very agile person may, by observing his reflection in a rapid sequence of longitudinal strips, obtain a fairly accurate conception of his looks. Della, being slender, had mastered the art.

Suddenly she whirled from the window and stood before the glass. her eyes were shining brilliantly, but her face had lost its color within twenty seconds. Rapidly she pulled down her hair and let it fall to its full length.

Now, there were two possessions of the James Dillingham Youngs in which they both took a mighty pride. One was Jim's gold watch that had been his father's and his grandfather's. The other was Della's hair. Had the queen of Sheba lived in the flat across the airshaft, Della would have let her hair hang out the window some day to dry just to depreciate Her Majesty's jewels and gifts. Had King Solomon been the janitor, with all his treasures piled up in the basement, Jim would have pulled out his watch every time he passed, just to see him pluck at his beard from envy.

So now Della's beautiful hair fell about her rippling and shining like a cascade of brown waters. It reached below her knee and made itself almost a garment for her. And then she did it up again nervously and quickly. Once she faltered for a minute and stood still while a tear or two splashed on the worn red carpet.

On went her old brown jacket; on went her old brown hat. With a whirl of skirts and with the brilliant sparkle still in her eyes, she fluttered out the door and down the stairs to the street.

Where she stopped the sign read: "Mne. Sofronie. Hair Goods of All Kinds." One flight up Della ran, and collected herself, panting. Madame, large, too white, chilly, hardly looked the "Sofronie."

"Will you buy my hair?" asked Della.

"I buy hair," said Madame. "Take yer hat off and let's have a sight at the looks of it."

Down rippled the brown cascade.

"Twenty dollars," said Madame, lifting the mass with a practised hand.

"Give it to me quick," said Della.

Oh, and the next two hours tripped by on rosy wings. Forget the hashed metaphor. She was ransacking the stores for Jim's present.

She found it at last. It surely had been made for Jim and no one else. There was no other like it in any of the stores, and she had turned all of them inside out. It was a platinum fob chain simple and chaste in design, properly proclaiming its value by substance alone and not by meretricious ornamentation--as all good things should do. It was even worthy of The Watch. As soon as she saw it she knew that it must be Jim's. It was like him. Quietness and value--the description applied to both. Twenty-one dollars they took from her for it, and she hurried home with the 87 cents. With that chain on his watch Jim might be properly anxious about the time in any company. Grand as the watch was, he sometimes looked at it on the sly on account of the old leather strap that he used in place of a chain.

When Della reached home her intoxication gave way a little to prudence and reason. She got out her curling irons and lighted the gas and went to work repairing the ravages made by generosity added to love. Which is always a tremendous task, dear friends--a mammoth task.

Within forty minutes her head was covered with tiny, close-lying curls that made her look wonderfully like a truant schoolboy. She looked at her reflection in the mirror long, carefully, and critically.

"If Jim doesn't kill me," she said to herself, "before he takes a second look at me, he'll say I look like a Coney Island chorus girl. But what could I do--oh! what could I do with a dollar and eighty- seven cents?"

At 7 o'clock the coffee was made and the frying-pan was on the back of the stove hot and ready to cook the chops.

Jim was never late. Della doubled the fob chain in her hand and sat on the corner of the table near the door that he always entered. Then she heard his step on the stair away down on the first flight, and she turned white for just a moment. She had a habit for saying little silent prayer about the simplest everyday things, and now she whispered: "Please God, make him think I am still pretty."

The door opened and Jim stepped in and closed it. He looked thin and very serious. Poor fellow, he was only twenty-two--and to be burdened with a family! He needed a new overcoat and he was without gloves.

Jim stopped inside the door, as immovable as a setter at the scent of quail. His eyes were fixed upon Della, and there was an expression in them that she could not read, and it terrified her. It was not anger, nor surprise, nor disapproval, nor horror, nor any of the sentiments that she had been prepared for. He simply stared at her fixedly with that peculiar expression on his face.

Della wriggled off the table and went for him.

"Jim, darling," she cried, "don't look at me that way. I had my hair cut off and sold because I couldn't have lived through Christmas without giving you a present. It'll grow out again--you won't mind, will you? I just had to do it. My hair grows awfully fast. Say `Merry Christmas!' Jim, and let's be happy. You don't know what a nice-- what a beautiful, nice gift I've got for you."

"You've cut off your hair?" asked Jim, laboriously, as if he had not arrived at that patent fact yet even after the hardest mental labor.

"Cut it off and sold it," said Della. "Don't you like me just as well, anyhow? I'm me without my hair, ain't I?"

Jim looked about the room curiously.

"You say your hair is gone?" he said, with an air almost of idiocy.

"You needn't look for it," said Della. "It's sold, I tell you--sold and gone, too. It's Christmas Eve, boy. Be good to me, for it went for you. Maybe the hairs of my head were numbered," she went on with sudden serious sweetness, "but nobody could ever count my love for you. Shall I put the chops on, Jim?"

Out of his trance Jim seemed quickly to wake. He enfolded his Della. For ten seconds let us regard with discreet scrutiny some inconsequential object in the other direction. Eight dollars a week or a million a year--what is the difference? A mathematician or a wit would give you the wrong answer. The magi brought valuable gifts, but that was not among them. This dark assertion will be illuminated later on.

Jim drew a package from his overcoat pocket and threw it upon the table.

"Don't make any mistake, Dell," he said, "about me. I don't think there's anything in the way of a haircut or a shave or a shampoo that could make me like my girl any less. But if you'll unwrap that package you may see why you had me going a while at first."

White fingers and nimble tore at the string and paper. And then an ecstatic scream of joy; and then, alas! a quick feminine change to hysterical tears and wails, necessitating the immediate employment of all the comforting powers of the lord of the flat.

For there lay The Combs--the set of combs, side and back, that Della had worshipped long in a Broadway window. Beautiful combs, pure tortoise shell, with jewelled rims--just the shade to wear in the beautiful vanished hair. They were expensive combs, she knew, and her heart had simply craved and yearned over them without the least hope of possession. And now, they were hers, but the tresses that should have adorned the coveted adornments were gone.

But she hugged them to her bosom, and at length she was able to look up with dim eyes and a smile and say: "My hair grows so fast, Jim!"

And them Della leaped up like a little singed cat and cried, "Oh, oh!"

Jim had not yet seen his beautiful present. She held it out to him eagerly upon her open palm. The dull precious metal seemed to flash with a reflection of her bright and ardent spirit.

"Isn't it a dandy, Jim? I hunted all over town to find it. You'll have to look at the time a hundred times a day now. Give me your watch. I want to see how it looks on it."

Instead of obeying, Jim tumbled down on the couch and put his hands under the back of his head and smiled.

"Dell," said he, "let's put our Christmas presents away and keep 'em a while. They're too nice to use just at present. I sold the watch to get the money to buy your combs. And now suppose you put the chops on."

The magi, as you know, were wise men--wonderfully wise men--who brought gifts to the Babe in the manger. They invented the art of giving Christmas presents. Being wise, their gifts were no doubt wise ones, possibly bearing the privilege of exchange in case of duplication. And here I have lamely related to you the uneventful chronicle of two foolish children in a flat who most unwisely sacrificed for each other the greatest treasures of their house. But in a last word to the wise of these days let it be said that of all who give gifts these two were the wisest. O all who give and receive gifts, such as they are wisest. Everywhere they are wisest. They are the magi.

Moving

2007-06-26T23:33:00.003+08:00

近日新加坡房价大涨，又逢开学在即，在这个节骨眼上找便宜又舒服的房子真是很困难的事情，何况要找一套。听超人说原来他和曾经的室友找房的几次经历，开始都想找一套继续做室友，但后来由于种种原因无奈只能分开的事情，那个时候我对自己说，这次一定要成功，不会丢下谁的。可事情后来的发展却难以左右。

首先，胖墩禁不住便宜的单人床位诱惑叛逃了，这样尴尬地剩下4个人，因为有人需要单间，所以仍然必须是3个卧室的。就在地毯式的搜索各大网站未果而搬家的时间一天天临近的时候，我们的中介女士带来了便宜好房的希望，虽然离学校远了点，1个小时车程，不过想想以前父母在郊区上班，每天早起送我上学之后去做班车，远不止1小时，加上去看了以后觉得周围生活方便，新房子新家具，唯一的一点不便也就忍了。新房的出现是因为房东不满现在的租户总是拖欠房租，想另寻租户。看房那天见到房东太太，用Alva的话说是一个PP却很有礼貌的女士，虽然这个月的租金还没有收到，不过她还没有把这个意愿告诉房客，就连我们去看房都是装成她的搬运工去的，看过之后还送我们回到地铁站。房子还是很满意的，谈了价钱，增添家具的等等问题，虽然没有签合约，不过也算是半定下来了。这样过了两天，今天晚上瓜头却突然和我说她女朋友也要搬家，自然是和他搬到一起住，但她觉得新的地方离上班地方太远。了解了一下，9站地铁的距离，当然，也可以乘一站地铁，再坐公司的班车去，而那个地方，离我们的学校比新的地方还要远蛮多。言下之意，他就要退出我们维之不易的fellowship，跟随女友而去了。这样做未免有些不够朋友，可也算是男人的优点吧。

Fellowship，或许在各种矛盾面前确实有点脆弱吧，就连超人的魅力都没有办法维持住的，我也不必去计较太多。写出来，觉得怪怪的心情好多了。

后记：胖墩的新家3间房已经住了7、8个人，听说就连客厅里面都住人。爱安静的他后来又搬了一次，现在应该还不错吧。瓜头也不顺利，每天上放学一个多小时，后来住得不爽又搬一次，自己和女朋友都很远。事情就是这样的，这就是生活。

Happy wedding!

2007-06-11T19:54:00.000+08:00

向MM和Gengpu同学马上就要marry了。除了表达偶衷心的祝愿，还自告奋勇的当了次御用摄影师。同行的还有经验丰富的老年摄影师“耗子”，及影坛新星“光头”。如此华丽的阵容，令同在景点（植物园和圣淘沙）拍婚纱照的其他队伍望而生畏，都尽量和我们拉开距离，避免相形见绌的尴尬。拍摄圆满成功之际，放出此次豪华团队的照片，也算是做个广告，为今后进军专业摄影界做点准备。

主角们，手持自制反光板（poster），表情时而可爱时而呆滞。

本人，扮相极具艺术气质的头号摄影师，以浓密的胡须著称当代马克思。

耗子，老年摄影师，经验丰富，精神恍惚，乘车去目的地时带我坐过2个站头，之后想超近路却误入私人住宅区，差点被狗咬死。

光头，摄影爱好者，以性感的光头从某刚认识的MM那里迅速骗取了专业级的D200相机。虽然学习摄影只有短短2天，而且是网络远程教学，不过在此行中表现出的搞笑和创意，消除了耗子和我差点被狗咬死的阴影。

What happened to google search?

2007-06-07T15:48:00.000+08:00

Google search is acting really weired recently. First off, my homepage disappeared from the search results by using keywords "Pan Yu homepage" (without the quote marks), which used to be the second results on the first page, but now totally disappeared (I haven't found within the first 10+ pages). Instead, lots of other web pages which neither contain consecutive "Pan Yu" nor are homepages of any sort are listed. At the beginning, I was wondering whether this is caused by the "personalized search" just launched, though I don't remember enabling it. I logged out my google account, searched again, nothing changed. Then I asked my labmate Edward to try the same thing for his homepage. This time, more counter-intuitive thing happened. When he typed "edward sim", his homepage appeared at the end of the first result page, however, trying "edward sim homepage" returned irrelevant stuff as what happened to me.

I know google has integrated news results to the normal search results a moment ago, but apparently what listed for our homepage search are not news. Google is acquiring a lot of companies and participating lots of other services outside the search world. While it used to move cautiously, it is more aggressive nowadays. I'm a little worried about google because it used to be based on pure technologies and people are really admire the objectiveness and spirit behind this. Growing into an empire that dominate the web may not be bad, since a lot of innovations and good services really benefit everybody and change the world. But except all those services and the so called google operating system, I really hope the heart of google can always be the same, being dependable and reliable, moving solid moves.

Web 2.0 services, my online office

2007-06-06T16:49:00.000+08:00

Blogging is surely one of the pioneers of Web2.0, and also the first one I started to participate. In fact, the concept of wiki was before blogging, and I also started to search in wikipedia before writing my blogs, but I've never contributed anything to wiki except for "using" it. Below is a sketch of Web2.0 services I'm using currently:

www.blogger.com google's blogging service.
www.citeulike.org research literature store, commenting and sharing.
del.icio.us online bookmarking.
docs.google.com document editing, not sure if it is Web2.0, but it can be used as a editor for blogger.
picasaweb.google.com photo store and sharing.
www.youtube.com google's video store and sharing.
www.mp3tunes.com music store, online playback and sharing
www.imdb.com movie info database.

Half of them are google services. In fact, from day one google launched gmail, the light of personal online office had turned on based on the large storage available for each account. Google had acquired a lot of Web2.0 companies and integrated their services under a universal account for each gmail user. An era of online office has come, just open your arms and brace it!

An international face...

2007-06-04T16:43:00.000+08:00

开始说是刘德华（香港人），被班主任起名Andy；胖的时候说像夏添（高中同学，圆圆脸）；后来留了点小胡子变成尼古拉斯凯奇（美国人）和周总理（从前的人）；胡子刮了变成木村拓哉（日本人）；在任何国家的入关口都会被拦下来检查因为有胡子像中东人；在自己国家出关时又被当成日本人；还有人说眼睛颜色浅像越南人。天哪，从小到大，我的变化有那么大吗？像某个明星还可以沾沾自喜一下，可是到出入关的时候就咯儿屁了，难道那些人从来不看电影吗？

A bug

2007-05-30T15:01:00.000+08:00

A stupid bug in my program:

vector <> content;
vector <> cp_array; // content pointer array

Constructing content and cp_array at the same time, using cp_array[x] = &content[y]. Later I found some pointers in cp_array didn't point to the correct content element. I doubted the logic of my program first, and then looked for all pointer assignments, but all seemed to be correct. After step by step debugging and printing intermediate array values (damn, it's hard to debug stl using gdb even though none optimizations were switched on), I found the content cp_array pointed to changed after a content.push_back(a), it is the push_back operation that caused content to reallocate memory and then what cp_array pointed to was nullified because the address of content vector was changed.

What I've learned: Do not use pointers on dynamically allocatable content, use indices instead.

Local idioms

2007-04-09T17:01:00.000+08:00

HH came to Singapore for a business trip some time ago, and asked a few of us to hang around a bit. While on the taxi, he raised a question about a word he saw a lot on/beside the road -- "ERP" which stands for the business he works in (Enterprise Resource Planning) but certainly was out of context. The taxi driver laughed while we frowned. "It tells you need to pay for driving on that road. It says, Everyday Robbing People!". We all fainted... To continue the stunning effect, he further asked "You know what GST is? You pay more when you buy things, then the Government Say Thank you!".

footnote:
ERP - Electronic Road Pricing
GST - Goods and Service Tax

Get fonts right in pdf formated papers

2007-03-28T10:45:00.000+08:00

I was struggling with font problem in my paper these days, and finally got done with it. I use winedt/MikTex companions under windows XP since 3-4 years ago. And PowerPoint for the figures, since I can directly print to pdf-printer (feature of acrobat) to get pdf figures nowadays. All these tools works efficiently. However, they didn't comply with ACM's strict requirement of fonts in publications, which restricts to the use of "type 1" and "embedded" fonts ONLY. Now, I have two problems. First one, I always have "truetype" font in my figures, since I don't have any "type 1" font installed on my windows. Second one, there are several "type 1" fonts cannot be embedded, such as "times", "courier" and etc.

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For the first problem, I need to install and use the "type 1" font corresponding to the "truetype" font I used in PowerPoint, so that the pdf figures generated contain "type 1". The free way of getting "type 1" font is to convert from existing truetype font (under \WINDOWS\Fonts). There are two ways of doing this:

First, use fft2pt1 (truetype to type 1 converter) to convert the truetype font (from a .fft file to a .pfb file and a .afm file), then use afm2pfm to convert the .afm to a .pfm file that windows recognizes, and finally drag the .pfm file to \WINDOWS\Fonts folder to get it installed. Note that if you're NOT using windows XP or 2000, you need to install Adobe Type Manager (ATM) to install the type 1 font. For now, if you're lucky, you can see and use the type 1 font in the PowerPoint font box (I cannot for some reason I don't know).

The second way to do this is to use FontLab (a commercial software) to generate the type 1 font. Just open the .ttf font, go to File->Font Info to give it a different font name (first page), go to File->Generate font, and choose to generate the "type 1 binary file (*.pfb)". Then install the font by dragging the .pfm file to \WINDOWS\Fonts folder. I managed to see the font in PowerPoint using this second method.

In PowerPoint, substitute all the fonts with the type 1 fonts you generated. When printing to the pdf printer, make sure to set the options of pdf printer to embed all the fonts (for my case, under "conversion settings->fonts->embedding" and add all the fonts to the "always embed" list). When the pdf file is produced, open it with acrobat, press CTRL+D to see the fonts. Most likely, you'll have all the fonts embedded.

An exception may occur if you use a non-English version of PowerPoint. For me, Chinese version. The default font is Sim-Sun. Some times, even all the places you can touch is set to non Sim-Sun font, it will still be included in the pdf file. In this case, open a new PowerPoint file, copy and paste you figure part by part to the new file. Produce a pdf file and check the font to see where Sim-Sun is introduced, and then try to modify or remove them. For me, I found starting spaces (by accident) introduces Sim-Sun, so I removed them.

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For the second problem, the cannot-be-embedded fonts are from the text compiled with pdflatex, which are assumed (by whom?) to be available on all systems (but not true), and referred as Base14 fonts.

To embed them, the simplest way is to install the latest version of MikTex (2.5) and ensure the pdfeTex version is above 1.20. By default, Base14 fonts are embedded. If you're using Tex system under Linux, similarly you need to ensure the pdfeTex (or pdfTex, or pdflatex) is above version 1.20. And then edit "/web2c/updmap.cfg" to ensure the following options is set to true: pdftexDownloadBase14, dvipdfmDownloadBase14. Finally, run updmap as root to update the configuration.

Another way of doing this is save your pdf document with the not-yet-embedded fonts as a PS file, using "save as..." in acrobat. Then use the command "ps2pdf14 -dPDFSETTINGS=/prepress -dEmbedAllFonts=true mydoc.ps" to generate the pdf file with fonts embedded.

I compared the results of the above two approaches, i.e., the direct pdflatex generating approach and the pdf->ps->pdf approach. It seems to me that the former approach is better in the following aspects. It includes less redundant fonts, so the file size is smaller. The graphs looks more original, and scrolls faster especially when complex patterns are used (pdf->ps->pdf approach converts 2 times, and may introduce some distortions and more fragments to the vector graph, thus show up slowly).

We're done.

Tips

2007-03-19T19:45:00.000+08:00

Do not try to compile a large program not compatible with your current version of gcc, instead, compile a version of gcc compatible with the program, and then use the gcc to compile it. (however, newest gcc does not even compile the old versions. In this case, compile a not-that-old version which compiles the old version to compile the old version. What a mess!)

Installing Fedora Core 6 on VMWare 5.5

2007-03-19T15:43:00.000+08:00

Since the up-to-date VMWare still doesn't support FC linux officially, you need to pay some effort installing and configuring FC6. I assume the readers have successful installation experience of other linux under VMware before, so only key points related to FC6 installation will be addressed.

1. Create a VM:
Open VM's "New Virtual Machine Wizard", make sure you choose the following options: "Custom" -> New - Workstation 5 -> "Other Linux with 2.6.x kernel" -> ... -> LSI Logic (for SCSI Adaptor) -> ... -> SCSI (recommended).

The above options will make sure FC6 installation wizard find your virtual disk properly.

2. Install VMWare Tools:
Make sure you have kernel-devel corresponding your running kernel installed, which provides the kernel headers needed by VMWare Tools. By default, you need to download and install kernel-devel by yourself. Note that the version of kernel-devel must match your running kernel exactly (for example, "2.6.18-1.2798.fc6xen.i686" does not match with "2.6.18-1.2798.fc6.i686), so if you cannot find a kernel-devel matches the kernel, you need to install a kernel that matches the kernel-devel. I don't recommend using yum to update the kernel and kernel-devel, because they don't always match (and you may not be able to find a co-existing pair). So we go the traditional rpm way.

To check your current running kernel, use "uname -r".

To download kernel-devel, goto "http://fedora.redhat.com/download/mirrors.html", find a mirror site close to your place, and download the rpm package of kernel-devel. For example, I would go to "ftp://ftp.oss.eznetsols.org/linux/fedora/6/i386/os/Fedora/RPMS/" in Singapore, and download "kernel-devel-2.6.18-1.2798.fc6.i686.rpm", and install it by "rpm -ivh kernel-devel-2.6.18-1.2798.fc6.i686.rpm".

You may need to download and install the kernel matches the kernel-devel as well. Similarly, download kernel-2.6.18-1.2798.fc6.i686.rpm and install it. Then reboot your linux. Stroke "enter" at boot up to choose the newly installed kernel. Or you can modify the grub configuration file "/etc/grub.conf", change the "default=" parameter (0 for the first kernel, 1 for the second kernel) for the new kernel.

Now you can locate the kernel headers under, for example, /usr/src/kernels/2.6.18-1.2798.fc6-i686/include.

Then mount your VMWare Tools iso, and run "vmware-install.pl". Key in the above kernel headers when asked. You should be able to install it successfully now.

3. Configure resolution of your X.
Edit "/etc/X11/xorg.conf" with root. Add the following section at the beginning of the file.

Section "Monitor"
Identifier "vmware"
HorizSync 1.0 - 10000.0
VertRefresh 1.0 - 10000.0
EndSection

Add a line "DefaultDepth 24" after "Mornitor "vmware"" line in "Screen" section (assuming you have a OK graphic card). Then change the "Modes" line under Depth 24 to your desired resolution. For example "Modes 1280x800". Then startX.

Reference
http://www.thoughtpolice.co.uk/vmware/howto/fedora-core-6-vmware-tools-install.html
http://www.linuxquestions.org/questions/showthread.php?t=503651
http://www.lowlevel.cz/log/pivot/entry.php?id=80

My Must-have Firefox Addons

2007-03-17T16:40:00.000+08:00

As a IT guy, switching among different OS and migrating from systems to systems (e.g., my desktop and a few of my laptops) is not uncommon. Whenever this happens, the first thing I would make sure is the up-to-date Firefox is installed with the following must-have addons:

Del.icio.us Bookmarks: for online bookmarking service, sharing bookmark links with others or myself (so that i don't need to synchronize the bookmarks from 3, 4 computers I use).
GUtil: grants me instant access to various google services I'm using (i.e., gmail, reader, docs, calendar, blogger, album) with button click.
ScrapBook: great substitution for "save page as..." function, which allows you to capture (and capture certain parts), organize, comment and edit on interesting web pages. The only problem is that it's not an online thing, and you need to export/import among different systems you have.
Google Toolbar for Firefox: this is actually with Firefox package, but I remind you to click on the "G" icon with the downward arrow, you will find it's not only for googling (i.g., I need Webster for English words that doesn't recognize me).
Session Manager: resume the tabs I was reading last time after restarting Firefox.
FireFTP: for lazy guys.

如何在3.10OE-A下使用USB连接电脑玩ISO游戏

2007-03-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

相信我们每个人都有一个巨大的ISO游戏库，而现在最大的棒子也只有4GB，而且价格不菲。所以有人提出了用USB连接电脑，直接读取电脑上存放的ISO来游戏的概念。这篇文章就是介绍怎样在3.10OE-A系统下面实现用USB->ISO来玩游戏的。DH可能自带这样的功能，由于我自己已经不用DH了，还希望达人补全。最后说明一下，使用自治软件，特别是写入固件（第2步）有可能损坏你的PSP系统，想要尝试的人必须有视死如归的精神，坏了我不承担任何责任，这也是自治软件社群的潜规则了。

本文参考了以下网页，特此感谢
http://psp3d.com/member-news/133 ... wares-released.html
http://www.hoodong.com/entrygroupview.do?doc_id=200000813384
http://forums.afterdawn.com/thread_view.cfm/454995

首先准备以下工具：
工具1. [USB Mod v4b For 3.10 OE-A]: 含有PSP端插件的工具包，用来与PC通信，以及切换USB->ISO状态还是普通ISO状态。
工具2. [usbhostfs_PC_Win_1.5]: PC端的USB通信服务器程序。
工具3. [libusb-win32-device-bin-0.1.10.1]: PSP设备驱动信息提取程序。
工具4. 如果是TA-082主板降级的机器，还需要[TA082_USB_Fix]来修复固件里面的错误信息，这样工具3才能提取正确的信息。

下面是具体步骤：
1. 解压工具1，把MS_ROOT/seplugins里usbhostfs.prx，buzzusbvsh.prx和buzzusb.txt复制到"psp 根目录/seplugins"。如果"PSP根目录/seplugins"下没有game.txt和vsh.txt，那这两个文件也复制过来。如果已经存在，则把工具1中2个txt文件的内容复制追加到已存在的2个txt文件中。
2. 关闭psp，按住R键开机进入恢复模式。在plugin选项中激活(enable)所有与usbhostfs和buzzusbvsh的插件。退出 plugin选项，选择Advanced->toggle USB (flash0)，之后把工具1中Flash0/kn/vshctrl.prx和systemctrl.prx复制到PSP的kn目录（先备份），覆盖原文件。退出恢复模式。重启以后就能通过长按"口"键切换普通ISO模式（原来的模式）和USB->ISO模式了。不过现在USB->ISO模式里还不会出现PC端的游戏，所以我们还需要安装PC端的服务器程序。
3. 解压工具2，复制PC上的游戏psp文件到解压后目录的ISO文件夹中（其实只要保证游戏iso文件在usbhostsf.exe程序所在目录的ISO子文件夹中就可以了）。复制cygusb0.dll和cygwin1.dll至 C:\windows\system32中。这样运行usbhostsf.exe，服务器端就算是设置好了。不过现在PSP的驱动程序还没有安装（不是平常识别为存储设备的那个驱动），所以还不能连接。
4. 接下来需要用工具3提取并安装PSP驱动程序。先启动PSP，这时windows会跳出检测到新硬件的对话框，暂时不必理会。解压工具3，运行bin\ inf-wizard.exe，选择next，会出现一个已连接USB设备的列表。通过开关psp来确定哪一项是psp对应的设备(需要back再 next来刷新列表)，之后选择此设备，next, next，把导出文件以默认文件名"your_file.inf"存至工具2的driver目录中。最后，关闭再打开psp，根据windows新硬件向导，选择工具2的driver目录来安装刚才导出的psp驱动了。安装完毕后，再接入psp的时候就不会跳出新硬件的对话框了。
5. 所有准备完毕。最后，运行usbhostfs.exe（工具2），出现一个dos窗口。连接并打开psp，长按"口"键切换到USB->ISO模式，如果dos窗口中显示"connected to device"，那么恭喜你，你可以运行在PC上的iso游戏了。

6. 如果你用的是TA-082主板的psp，psp的驱动信息并不能被正确的提取。这时需要使用工具4来修复psp的固件，之后再提取驱动信息。解压工具4，把MS_ROOT里面内容复制到psp根目录（确保043.bin在psp根目录）。在psp里运行UsbHostfs-Fix程序，全部显示successful之后重启psp。之后跳到步骤4制作驱动。后面相同。

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问题1：安装工具2之后，我怎么辨别切换到了USB->ISO模式还是普通ISO模式？
回答：按住"口"键之后，psp上面读盘的指示灯会闪烁一会儿，这个说明正在切换模式。之后记忆棒中的游戏图标可能并没有刷新，需要进入“游戏存档”，然后退出，之后就刷新了。如果刷新之后显示的是原来棒子里面的游戏，就是出于普通ISO模式，如果显示了硬盘上面的iso游戏，就是进入了USB-> ISO模式。如果什么游戏都没有显示，那是处于USB->ISO模式，这个时候，如果usbhostsf.exe的dos窗口中显示 "connected to device"，那么是因为iso游戏放置的文件夹没有设对；如果dos窗口没有显示，就是psp驱动的问题了。

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你可以用google搜索，或者到http://www.cngba.com/thread-16648557-1-1.html下载以下工具（须注册为cngba会员）：
USB_Mod_v4b_For_3.10_OE-A_For_PSP.zip
usbhostfs_PC_Win_1.5.rar
libusb-win32-device-bin-0.1.10.1.rar
TA082_USB_Fix.rar

Directional magnetic recharging

2006-11-07T22:57:00.000+08:00

Daydreaming in the restroom just now, I was thinking how wonderful this world has become because of the discovery of electrocity. Electrical power captivated inside small batteries enables countless portable and handy applications, yet charging batteries frequently is really a headache and more and more becomes a bottleneck for all portable devices. I was wondering if there is any way to make recharging easier... here comes the idea. As we all know, electric power and magnetic power are interchangable. While electrocity conduction usually needs solid/liquid media like copper wire, the conduction of magnetic power can be done in the thin air. According to this simple fact, one can construct a pair of transmitter-reciever devices to transmit power from the power grid to charge the consumer device. The transmitter connected to the power grid convert electric power into a highly directional and focused magnetic beam, and the reciever obsorbs the magnetic beam entirely and convert it back to e-power to charge the device battery. Apparently one prerequisit needs to be kept: there mustn't be any living obstacles between the transimitter and reciever, to avoid harmful effects due to human body exposed to strong magnetic field.

Imagine a fuel free country with wirelessly rechargable transportations. Think of recharging recharging ur laptop on a bus, in ur car, etc. How amazing things would be.

Sth about IP

2006-10-31T11:14:00.000+08:00

An Integer Programming without a objective function is a decision problem, instead of an optimization problem. Although the computational complexity is the same for both of them, decision problem is faster to solve, for it only requires one feasible solution (rather than the optimal one). In case an optimal solution is not neccesary, and bounds are given for a feasible one, such formulation is helpful.

Being science

2006-10-31T10:51:00.000+08:00

Is the thrill gone?

Problems

2006-10-30T15:45:00.000+08:00

The number of ways of solving problems are far greater than the number of existing problems.

A new Shanghai

2006-10-23T19:44:00.000+08:00

在新加坡到上海的飞机上阅览报纸，看到新加坡正在评估投票sentosa的几个开发方案，无论采用哪个方案，sentosa都会在2、3年之后变成一个完全不一样的地区性的旅游度假胜地。变化和发展令人兴奋，光是在脑袋里面憧憬一番都感到迫不及待了。在另外一份飞机上的杂志上面，看到了新建成的上海南客站的文章，一张色彩鲜艳的夜景图中南客站现代式的建筑和前面宽阔的绿地通道让人眼前一亮，几年前上海人还把北客站称作“新客站”，不知道南客站会咋叫呢？

其实首先让我感觉到变化的是东航的服务。和Thai，Silkair，UA，BA，AirItaly，还有以前的东航相比，现在东航的空中服务让人有一种由内向外的愉悦感。通常的空中小姐/先生们面带一种可以称之为“刹那间的微笑”，在面向旅客的时候发生，转开时消失，很Cool哦。这次东航的感觉却让人真正的觉得亲切，空中小姐经常和旅客交流，甚至闲聊，让人觉得她们喜欢自己的工作，而非仅仅当作是一些routing job。客舱广播里面经常会说一句话 “if you need anything, plz don't hesitate to call us, we are very glad to serve you”，一个“don't hesitate”，便可以让旅客们的心情放松下来，即使长途旅行的滋味不好受，也可以把旅途当成享受了。

空闲的19号去了3个地方，南站，莱弗士广场和复旦。南站当然已经不是过去老火车站那样拥挤杂乱的景象了，3层立体的设计和宽大的空间让站内变得井然有序，已经是一个很舒适的地方了。印象最深的是各处的方向指示牌，想当年我对新加坡机场（世界上最好的机场之一）最推崇的一点就是指示牌得清晰和全面性，现在在南站也看到了。指示牌方便体贴的价值远远超过了其设计和安放所需要的成本和空间，好的指示牌也能够给人好的服务的印象的。南站外面的空间并没有想象中的那么大，旁边的高架路也限制了视野，而且铁轨也没有像美国一些大城市火车站那样设置在地下，让人稍微有点失望。

复旦的变化就太大了。整条邯郸路扩宽了一倍不止，西门的位置变到了行政楼那里，标志性大楼虽然在照片上面看过，不过在整个校园平坦的地势上未免显得太过于突兀了。以前曾经的老宿舍8号楼经过翻新以后已然成了研究生院，曾经的美味天堂臭水沟和四合院已经不复存在。从国定路口到五角场的一段已经变成了宽阔的马路，两旁的小店都变成人行道了。轻专的地盘变成了占地面积巨大的新闻学院，再里面一些地方也在修建新的建筑，这样的浩大工程，让人惊喜，同时也疑惑到：真的需要那样大的地方么？五角场也面目全非了，以前卖盗版运动鞋，盗版光盘和那些廉价的小饭馆，现在都到什么地方去了呢？

回程去浦东机场的路上去坐磁悬浮列车，1分钟加速到200公里时速的时候，已经觉得是在飞驰了，直到431全速，完全看不清外面的世界了。一直盯着窗外看，突然间听到“嘣”的一声，空气的震动透过车窗的玻璃弹到脸上，另外一条轨道上面相向而行的列车只一闪便消失了，车内一群老外惊叫而后欢呼，他们一定在想 “上海怎么TMD这么牛X啊？”。

机场安检和duty free区，2次小姐上来就和我说一大串日文，还说的特标准，搞得我乱死了，居然用英文回答他们说我不是日本人，之后她们又开始说英文。。。事后我决定以后先用英文问她们会不会说韩语，等她们说完之后我再说我是中东的，只是想测试下她们的外语，然后要求他们说以色列语……

对于我这个阔别上海之有3年的人来说，这个城市已经变得有点Ve宁得了。以前的人说“雕栏玉器应犹在，只是朱颜改”，没想到现在我的朱颜还没怎么改，雕栏玉器就byebye了。这个世界，已经如此dynamic，如此的不同了。

DJ's Wedding & All about FRIENDS

2006-10-23T16:50:00.000+08:00

DJ是我大学时候的班长，我的好友。我们的友谊并没有建立在频繁的来往之上，甚至可以说我们生活在截然不同的两种状态中，不过却是真正关心对方的朋友。DJ的婚礼其实在一年多以前就已经差不多定下来了，当时我对自己毕业的问题还比较乐观，所以答应一定去参加。一年之后，前段时间自己心神不宁，便开始犹豫到底能不能去，家里也希望我早点写完论文，叫我邮寄礼物就可以了。时近10月，强烈的思想斗争变成了一个晚上DJ的托梦，第二天挂上Offline已久的MSN，竟然发现DJ的nick改成了“请潘宇同学和我联系”。看到这个nick的时候，险些牛下了眼内，如果不能去参加最好的朋友的婚礼，不敢想象自己会错过了什么。

15号昆明到新加坡，18号晚上10点多到上海，DJ开着他的新买的“别摸我”来接我，just like old times。20号的婚礼上，我意外的接到了小余（DJ太太）的大花球，原来是他们要我6个月之内“搞定”，多么艰巨的任务啊。

18号晚上住到伟哥家，豪华的单身公寓，免费无线网络连接，无限酒水，不过呢，就是乱了点，还要和伟哥挤一张1.5人床，献出我的第X次同性同床。半夜1点多问伟哥借照相机，他说，没有，之后紧接着说，要不我明天去买一个，我吐血；然后他说，要不你去买，我报销，我说没带钱，他说我现在下去取，我又吐血；后来第二天早上他9点多签证办完回来，我们果然去徐家汇买了个照相机（T10），之后就交给我进行长达2天的专业试机了。

19号晚上我们4个室友到淮海路晚餐，阿杰研究生刚毕业一年，虽然在一家大的半导体公司工作，不过还是和以前一样文静。室友当中，阿杰是和我性格最接近的，也是我曾经希望成为推心置腹的好朋友的人，不过事实证明2个人都内向，要做到这点还是比较困难，当然我们都知道，默默的，we care about each other。后来突然想起以前常常在一起happy的师兄“大头”，ZZ立马打了电话给他，叫他出来玩。电话通了，ZZ突然啊了一声，说大头在温州，之后又啊了一声，说他晚上晚点过来。当时已经将近8点，温州坐车到上海至少7、8个钟头，我们说他难道要坐飞机过来？到10点多我们跑到新天地喝60块钱一杯的矿泉水（其实没有喝这个，喝了70块的长岛冰茶-_-b）的时候，大头打电话来说他已经到浦东机场了。12点钟在旁边小店里面吃小龙虾的时候，终于等到了3年未见面的大头，头好像比以前更大了…… DJ在大头前面也加入了我们，6个人围坐在一桌，街边的小店2楼站起来顶到头的小阁楼里面，仿佛一切又回到了4年前大学的快乐时光。纵使如今他们已经在社会和事业上有了不小的发展和变化，而我还生活在宁静的校园，but something is always the same。

20号DJ的婚礼终于圆满完成了，客人都告辞之后，DJ环视了一下刚才还热闹的宴席厅，说道，“留到最后的都是同学”，后来在准“洞房”里面对他们的爸爸妈妈们说“这些都是我最好的朋友”。

告辞之前DJ和小余的爸爸妈妈都感谢我来参加他们的婚礼，我在长辈面前不善言辞，只是说我们是好朋友。其实，他们才是我需要感谢的人，感谢DJ托梦给我，感谢他在网上找我，让我体会到FRIENDS这个词的意义，让我看到和分享到，friends们的快乐。

Curiosity, Screwing up and Detachment

2006-10-13T00:31:00.000+08:00

就像Matrix reloaded里Oracle所说：Everything that has a beginning has an end。在与WoW接触的一年半时间里，自己为这个虚拟的世界放弃和失去了很多，甚至几度消沉和绝望。在一种放下与不放之间反复挣扎，快乐着却不能彻底的快乐，堕落着却又不能彻底的堕落。现实中自己内心多年以来积累的大量的问题，被这个迷人的世界彻彻底底的引发了，暴露了出来，借助这个似乎与世隔绝的世界冲淡，逃避和暂时的消解这些顽固的负面情绪。从前高中的时候很疑惑自己究竟想要什么，那时的优秀并没有让心灵有一种平静的感觉，一直缺失的东西常常让自己怀疑所谓的“优秀”的意义；也常在想，如果有一天我搞砸了，会是怎样？事隔7、8年之后，我真的把事情搞砸了，从不怎么砸，到真的很砸。似乎在我的潜意识中，就是想要把自己彻底的否定，看看到底能够坏到什么程度。所以，在焦虑，恐惧的同时，还带有一些不在乎。逐渐的，终于把自己的工作，我和周围的几乎所有人的关系，搞得一团糟，甚至包括小艳和父母。现在的我，或许已经到了有些走投无路的地步了，也终于经历到了“搞砸了”的滋味，经历着人生中最消沉的时期。于是，也实现了多年以前的一个设想，就是现在这个样子:-)。这是一种很怪异的矛盾心理：去尝试全新的经历，即使是一种痛苦的极力避免经历。当然，现在这个样子并不是我想要的生活，所以我必须离开现在的这种状态。

Morrie说: Detachment doesn't mean you don't let the experience penetrate you. On the Contrary, you let it penetrate you fully. That's how you are able to leave it. 我想，正是由于从前没有经历过失败和消沉，却又好奇这种经历，所以自己才会冒险，甚至放手去让事情搞砸。在彻底的经历这段时间的消沉之后，虽然很多问题仍然没有答案，却可以感受到一个不同于以往的自己。还会让事情搞砸么？也许会，在不可避免的时候，不过不会故意去这样做了，因为我已经明白会发生什么，不再为这个而“好奇”了。是的，this thing is ended, and I'm glad I can finally detach from it.

Jeff Zhang

2006-10-02T23:50:00.001+08:00

高中一次回家的路上和王英萍聊到流行歌，她对张信哲和张宇推崇之极。当时我只知道小虎队、范晓萱和Michael Jackson，对于纯粹卿卿我我，或者说比较露骨的情歌带有抵触情绪，像齐秦、周华健还有四大天王什么的统统不屑一顾。所以对于当时刚刚唱《雨一直下》的惺惺作态的张宇压根没有兴趣，甚至在心里面暗想：“我靠，怎么女生会喜欢这种歌手？”。不过对于张信哲，我却想起来家里面居然有一盘现成的随手从小二哥哥那里借来好几个月但是却从来没有听过的张信哲磁带《拥有》，翻出来，看到了《爱如潮水》，似乎在街边路过音像店的时候听到过，这才把张信哲和他的声音联系起来。不论歌词如何，《爱如潮水》悠扬的配乐加上张信哲含蓄圆润的声音演绎的带有一些悲情色彩“我再也不愿……”的高潮部分，在之前的某个时候我就隐隐约约的有些喜欢了。带着“终于找到了”（其实也没有刻意地去找）的窃喜，或者说是先入为主的好感，阿哲的歌声走入了俺的生活。

阿哲的歌虽然90%是不折不扣的情歌，歌词里面也不少“爱”字，不过阿哲的爱充满了温柔的伤感，含蓄而不张扬，笑脸中带着忧郁，这和青春期少年对爱情朦胧青涩的认识不谋而合。几首歌当中宁愿自己受苦，却强颜欢笑放飞祝福所爱的人的心情，和折磨人的单相思有着相似的意境。我不得不承认，自己性格当中的软弱和忧郁，很多是来自阿哲的这些温柔的折磨人的情歌。下面写几首印象最深的歌和MTV。（to be added: 《有了爱》，《我最爱的女人》，《我是真的》，《临别一眼》）。

刚才看到鲁豫和阿哲的“座谈”，谈到他如何成为一个歌手的历史。阿哲其实早先并没有想过自己会成为歌手，在唱诗班合唱团也只是觉得自己音乐方面“还不错”，而且直到大二的时候签约进入唱片公司以后，有很长时间（一年半）都是在打杂跑腿，完全是当作“勤工俭学”，还因为有了一份额外的收入感到“还不错”。89年的时候才有机会和潘越云合唱他的第一首歌（他说到录音的时候他爸去了，结果搞得他很尴尬，因为当着父亲唱情歌）。听到这些，才明白原来阿哲靠的是这样一种踏踏实实的态度才有了后来事业的成功。“情歌王子”说话常常也会不好意思地低头笑笑，回答问题的时候很认真，让你觉得他是你的朋友。他是一个平平常常的人，不过因为这个，他却不平常。

About my past, about 贾老师

2006-05-05T16:02:00.000+08:00

贾老师曾经常挂在嘴边的一句话就是"将心比心"。很多自己不能一下子接受或者理解的事情，在设身处地的考虑的时候就会变得自然而然。贾老师非常懂得而且教育学生懂得尊重每一个人，她常说"大人有大人的自尊心，小孩也有小孩的自尊心"。她还教导我们对待他人要一视同仁，无论他曾经的表现如何。尽管我是那时是她班上最好的学生之一，但在犯错的时候，仍然被请过家长，罚过站。我也曾经不理解她的做法，曾经对她对我的惩罚而痛恨她，因为那时的我，甚至刚刚的我并不理解为什么她那么喜欢我却让我受罚。现在想来，她一直都是用一种严厉的爱来告诉告诉我们她的真理。

贾老师总是在班上说我们班的孩子"太纯了"，回想起来她也总是在我们面前说我们的好，而很少像其他有的老师那样说"看看某某班的某某"多出色之类的话。我们并不知道多少有关于"激烈的竞争"的说法，但每次考试或者是竞赛，我们班都有不错的结果，平均成绩也是比较好的。虽然有的时候贾老师也会抱怨一些同年级其他班主任的做法和不公平，但学生们也因此而知道自己是幸运的。班上一直实行著名的"一帮一，一对红"的做法，学习好的学生和学习不大好的学生坐在一起，我乐意帮助别人的性格就是那个时候培养起来的。六年的小学时光，我们生活在友爱的花园里面。而到了现在，自己很多理想化的想法和渴望单纯的性格仍然没有太大的变化。这种性格可能给自己带来很多的失望和压力，但是我相信简单且单纯的想法是我原来成功的一大因素，因为它能明确的告诉你哪些事情是对的，哪些是"the right things to do"。

Video taped talk introducing Fudan life

2006-03-24T11:36:00.000+08:00

贰月底的时候作为volunteer给SoC的本科生介绍中国大学生活的一些情况。新加坡的大部分本科生似乎太愿意带在自己的国家了，虽然中国有10所最好的大学提供exchange的机会，甚至NUS提供资助和贷款，但申请的人还是很少，白白浪费了那么多的机会。如果外国大学在中国提供那么多机会，哪怕是印度，申请的学生也不会少。发展中国家更具有活力，人们反倒更加开放，学习的热忱反倒高，果然是"生于忧患，死于安乐"阿！Anyway, 下面是录像的讲话，对着摄像机旁边的script念的，拍出来有点傻，眼睛看着旁边有点像斜视。。。

I'm from Fudan University, so I'm gonna talk something about Fudan University. Fudan University is located in Shanghai, which is the economical heart of China and a very developed city just like singapore, so I bet everything you find here in singapore, you'll find it and more around Fudan, maybe except for Durain. The university is one of the best universities in China and is called "Yale in China" according to its international reputation, and is also one of the earliest universities in China, as you probably know, Fudan has celebrated its centinnial with NUS together last year. It has a beautiful campus, and you can find both old chinese style gardons with "xiao qiao liu shui" and modern style brand new university hall on campus.

The brightest part of student life in Fudan is the variety and quality of tens of special intrest clubs, for me I was in the chior which is the best student chior team in Shanghai, and I was in the comics club where we have weekly comics movie session and I borrowed lots of comics books from friends in the club, and I was in the modern dancing club for a very short while to perform a street dance on a dancing festival. Other clubs like calligraphy, orchestration, rock & roll bands, chess and weiqi/go, drama play and even English corner - somewhere you can have a show time and definately get everyone stuned... Food in and around Fudan is brilliant, you can find very original taste food from different schools like Sichuan, Yunnan around, and also western, korean, etc near the campus. There is a even a big Raffles city in central Shanghai opened by singaporean in case you miss singapore a lot, but I guess you won't. If you have time travelling around, you can go to a lot of famous places very easily and near Shanghai, like Hangzhou, Suzhou, Nanjing, HuangShan, YanDangShan, and et al. I think you will have more than enough fun there living in Fudan.

In terms of study, most computer science courses are taught in Chinese using chinese text books. This may be a challenge for you, but its just like it was a challenge for me when I first came here three years ago as a postgraduate student. Surpprisingly, I found it is very easy to relate chinese terminologies with english ones so I had no problem passing all the exams for the first semester. Besides, I think it's very interesting to know how Chinese and English terminologies are inter-translated, like database in chinese is called ShuJuKu. Some old professors like to teach with a old school blackboard style, and you will find it's really helpful to fully understand what is going on, compared to powerpoint slides. What I want to say here is, don't worry about Chinese, you already have it!

Another thing is, if you are worried about leaving home and get lonely etc, don't. The fact is, we have a whole international student department in Fudan, and most of them are from Korea and Japan, around 2/3 hundreds I guess, but you know, they don't speak good chinese and english, but singaporeans do. Chinese students in general are very interested in making foreigner friends, to know about different cultures and practise English. To be sure, after the lecturer introduced you to the class, you'll be queued after class.

The last thing, I think to go to China and know about China will be a good experience for you, as with time passing by, you will definitely meet more and more chinese people and such experience will closer the distance. Keep in touch with friends you made in Fudan, as later on, some of them will become important people, and can give you positive support on your own career. I wish some of you have been fired up and wish you a fruitful and happy stay in China!

My music store and storage

2006-03-24T10:50:00.000+08:00

作为一个喜欢音乐的人，其实早就暗暗想要买一个了。虽然原先的sony CD/mp3 player还健在，不过携带起来很不方便，再加上原先的歌曲零散的放在好几张CD上面，有的甚至已经读不出来了，大有退休的趋势。当然，上面的是借口，真正的原因是，作为一个健康的男性，自己没有办法抗拒包含最新科技元素的小玩意儿，特别是一个set the standard的小玩意儿。星期天和小艳出去逛街，借着将就做一个活动硬盘的目的（还是借口……）买下了她--最新的ipod video 30GB。

在FUNAN逛了一个大店和一个小店，小店便宜20块，小艳说，反正也不是很多，还是在大店买比较放心。小艳的直觉比较灵，另外发现自己最近做事情谨慎了许多，最后决定以一顿晚饭钱来加以补偿，结果出去逛街晚饭居然还是回家做了吃的（2袋饺子5块钱，外加西红柿卷心菜鸡蛋汤大概3块，还算比较省:-)）。

晚上开始充电完毕，遂开始摆弄。其间死机一回，按任何键都无反应，不能standby，想起以前徐熹的新手机因为类似问题烧掉重换了一个，突然觉得很郁闷。好在小艳不停的开导我，更年期情绪过去之后静下心来google了一下，发现可以通过按键组合来reboot。我这个对电子产品颇有天赋的人，败在了坏情绪上，值得检讨一下。后来使用的感觉都很pleasant，ipod video放电影效果确实很好，320x200的分辨率，甚至比以前的VCR和VCD还要好，在小屏幕上真是cristal clear。mp3 now playing可以显示专辑的artwork，刚好前段时间买了Gozillaz demon days的CD，压成mp3，再google了一张artwork，播放的时候就和上面右边的图一模一样了:-)。正因为pleasant，这两天逢人就show一下俺的ipod。Cool enough~

Self testing, true enough

2006-03-10T17:24:00.000+08:00

Alva has mentioned this self testing about what is your scholastic strength some time before. Finding it today, I'm still quite supprised it contains only 5 short questions. Forget about the script doing the scoring, it's quite accurate for me, and for alva, for it's interesting to find that people are "suitable" to develop their scholastic strength from their hobbies, rather than works :-D Nonetheless, the qualitative description about "innovative" character of mine is true, it's in my BLOOD.

Your Scholastic Strength Is Innovating

You are the master of new ideas, techniques, and ways of looking at things.
You are talented at structuring thoughts, decision making, clarifying, and making deadlines.

You should major in:

Marketing
Psychology
Desgin
Cognitive Science
Economics
Photography

What Should You Major In?

Doing a presentation

2006-02-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

我喜欢做轻松的presentation，所以即使内容technical，开头和中间都要说些“题外话”，对一些简单的但听众不一定懂得的概念会介绍一下。不过这并不是这里要求的风格，虽然我过有几次自认为成功的presentation，而且学生听众的反应不错，但老板（们）却并不喜欢。他们更喜欢professional的presentation，而做到professional而又不乏味似乎只有我老板一个人；我做不到这一点，尝试去做，也会在准备的时候就失掉了兴趣。

昨天在系里面作为volunteer做了个15分钟的中国大学生生活映像的讲话。整个slides20多页全是照片，包括了google earth的卫星图，上海，和复旦的各方面。从主持的vice dean的反映来看，讲话还是满成功的，因为他每次都把复旦放在第一个说:D。四个presenter，2个SoC的，2个Science的，SoC的讲话自然有趣，Science的比较紧张。感叹一下，SoC的学生，从进入SoC以来大大小小的presentation，以及Conference上面的讲话中得到了不少锻炼，再加上IT竞争的激烈，综合能力会有小小的不一样，呵。

总之，记录最近难得的一次快乐心情。

Attitude

2005-10-20T14:25:00.000+08:00

一直贴在实验室一抬眼就可以看到的地方。愉快的时候，郁闷的时候，紧张的时候，想要堕落的时候。。。都可以看到它，读完之后，心里面就踏实了:-D

Attitude is more important than facts.
It is more important than the past,
than education, than money,
than circumstances, than failures,
than successes, than what other people think
or say or do.
It is more important than appearance,
giftedness or skill.

We cannot change our past.
We cannot change the fact that people
will act in a certain way.
We cannot change the inevitable.
The only thing we can do is play on the one
string we have, and that is our attitude...

Life is 10% what happens to us and
90% how we react to it.

We have a choice - everyday - regarding the
attitude we will embrace for that day.

“今天我算是来过洛桑了”

2005-10-10T00:14:00.000+08:00

Lausanne - golden afternoon

下个星期就回新加坡了，昨天到洛桑城市里面去买了点礼物，又把老城区逛了一遍，终于见识到洛桑星期6的集市菜市场，和中国其实很相像，就连装菜的塑料框和电子秤都是一样的，不一样就在于，这里的农民说法语。

洛桑主要的商业区在老城区，其实真的很小，不过因为是建在山坡上面，所以体力的消耗会让人觉得有点逛街的成就感，而且不得不佩服这里的祖先几百年以前建城选址的时候就具有奥林匹克的精神。大教堂在城市的北面，地势高傲。哥特式的大教堂多很雄伟，也正因于此而集很多功能于一身。像是战争时期的瞭望台加碉堡，和平时期的消防预警和钟楼，而洛桑至今还保留有守夜人报时的传统。

新城区Ouchy，洛桑老城南面的日内瓦湖畔昔日的小渔村，现在是主要休闲观光的好去处，而且还有著名的奥林匹克公园。昨天居然是第一次去Ouchy，早上6.6chf买了张天票，买完礼物大概4点多，就从老城区乘齿轨“烤箱”下去。出地铁站就基本上是湖边，第一眼就能看到湖中小岛上那个半圆的雕塑。我对自己说，“今天我算是来过洛桑了”。这里人们真很有运动的精神，孩子们有多路滑梯，老人们有实地象棋（每个棋子都要去搬的），还有很多跑步者矍铄的身影。一个城市有着现代plus湖光山色，这也算是瑞士的特色了（重庆应该也是，昆明市区离西山远了些）。到奥林匹克公园照相（那些雕塑没有照好，构图不怎么样阿），在另外一边发现一个巡回马戏团（门票从20到50不等）。走了一天很累就回去了，不然可以看看这边的夜景，应该也不错吧。

洛桑最大的遗缺点是找不到精致漂亮的明信片，而相比之下伯尔尼的真的很不错。还有英语在这边的普及很有问题，虽然年轻人普遍能听，但很多关键性的服务部门，比如说学校里的邮局，学校的办卡处，学生公寓的管理员等等，居然一点都不懂，特别不方便。不过办卡处的那个老太太很有意思，她会用google translate！

最后一周，希望能把算法方面的事情解决完毕:-D

聚首日内瓦

2005-09-29T01:27:00.000+08:00

What a lunch!

写一些需要记住的东西吧：

Raza生日11月，Nadia 1月，他们的baby（还不知道男女，他们想要一个supprise）12月，夹在中间；
Raza两个兄弟一个姐妹，1个在美国，一个在沙特阿拉伯，一个在家达卡外的另外一个城市；Nadia从小在达卡长大；
Raza生下来之后就周游列国，3岁的时候到马来西亚6年，然后沙特阿拉伯6年，然后回到达卡，直到2002年来到新加坡；
我们为午饭起的名字：Lausanne Soup，Geneva fish, Zurich salad, Bern pasta, and (where they live in Geneva)(the Italian dish Nadia cooked)。
我结婚的时候，提前3到6个月通知他，他一定会来参加！

About Dr. Tanveer Raza

2005-09-24T17:58:00.000+08:00

昨天接到Raza的电话，说他已经拿到博士学位了，准备30号回孟加拉。他邀请我星期天去日内瓦，说只是个小城，一天足够逛逛了。因为电话声音质量不好，所以没有听清楚他这次回国后还会不会再返回瑞士工作。如果这次真是“一去不复返”，那下次再见就真的是遥遥无期了。(I recieved a phone call yesterday from Raza, telling me that he has got his Doctor's degree and would go back to Bangladesh on 30th this month. He invited me to Geneva, and said it is a small city, one day is enough to go around. Due to the poor voice quaility thru the telephone line, I didn't hear clearly whether he would come back and work in Swiss after the trip home. But if he would not, the next time we meet may be really long after.)

Raza 是我到新加坡以后第一个认识的非本地人。当时是注册的第一天，在University Hall里面填交材料的长队里面，他排在我前面，好像是我问他或是他问我借笔，就说了几句，他学医，给人的感觉很温和。后来下午新生 orientation在一楼等车，我和林丹都去little India，后来看到Raza也在就很搞笑的拉他一起去了（说搞笑是因为他本身是孟加拉人，对印度的了解其实一点不比印度人自己要少）。我当时听说他正在找房子，就很自然的说，如果他找房子有困难的话，就搬过来和我住一起。这句话他后来经常提起，一句关心的话，成了我们以后关系的基础。当时在little India的一家香料店里面问他是什么地方的人，他说：Bangladesh，我们几个中国人竟然都听不懂，后来吃完饭又经过了几家店，我突然想到孟加拉，问他是不是有孟加拉老虎，他说是，才恍然大悟。记得在经过一个观音庙之前，我在揶揄他叫他多运动，因为他的肚子比我的3个都大:-D。我也不清楚为什么记得这些细节，甚至发生的地点，初到新加坡的记忆，永远都很清晰。(Raza is the first non-local friend I made after coming to Singapore. It was the first day of the new students' registration, he stood just next to me in the long queue submitting registration documents in the university hall. We started talking to each other after a pen-borrowing transaction. He was studying medicine, gentle and warm to people. In the Orientation later in the afternoon, Lin Dan and I decided to go to Little India. Raza was also there, and we requested him to go with us (we knew later he's Bangladeshi, and he doesn't seem to lack knowledge about India at all). He told us he was looking for a room, I responded, if he had difficulties, just come to mine and stay with me. He mentioned about these words many times later, a few warm words, built a ground of our long term relationship afterwards. Wandering around little india, we asked where he is from. "Bangladesh", supprisingly none of us a few Chinese got which country it is. After lunch, passing by a few more Indian spice shops, "Meng Jia La" suddenly flashed thru my head. I asked him whether they have Bangladeshi tiger? Yes, he replied. Bingo, I'm a genius. In front of a Chinese temple, I joked and asked him to do more excercises, coz his abdomen easily tripled mine :-D. I don't know how I could remember these in so much detail, even where a word was spoken/told. The memory of being fresh in Singapore is always crystal clear.)

其实我们的交往次数并不是很多，大有一种君子之交淡如水的感觉。我和他谈起我的女朋友，他说他30岁了，还没有女朋友呢。他常回家看望父母，让他们看他和我的照片。他请我和林丹到Jurong Point晚餐，请我到他PGP的住处吃他自己做的饭，他两次从家里面回来都给我带T-shirt，一件Bangladesh tiger的，一件有很多Bangoli文字的，他买了笔记本电脑让我去帮他看网络...... 他的生活，到现在3年多一点的时间里，也经历了不小的变化（我自己却没什么不同）。从他父亲的去世（当时我第一批被通知，我知道他对他父亲的感情很深，email里面那些苍白的话也根本没办法安慰他），NUS拿到硕士毕业，和Nadia结婚，在日内瓦一边做医生一边拿到了博士学位。即使如此，他给人的感觉还是那么温和，我希望自己也能如此。(We kept infrequent contact since we first met till now, this let me think of one Chinese saying "the friendship of gentleman is as clear as water (君子之交淡如水)" (while the friendship of villain is as sweet as honey). I mentioned my girlfiend was still in Shanghai (at that time), and he said, "I'm 30, and I don't even have one". He went back home frequently to see his parents, showing them photos we took together. He invited Lin Dan and me for dinner in Jurong Point, asked me to his PGP apartment to taste his cooking skill, brought T-shirt for me two times after coming back from Bangladesh (one with a Bangladeshi tiger, another with many Bangoli calligraphy), asked me to help setting up the network after he bought a new laptop, etc... His life, changed a lot within 3 years (while mine is almost the same as it was). From the passing of his father (I was told immidiately after that, and I knew my words in the mail intended to comfort him was too plain in front of his deep feelings of his farther), graduating as master of medicine from NUS, being married to Nadia, to being a doctor in Geneva hosiptal and finally getting the Doctor degree. Even though, he still remains so warm and gentle. I hope I could be like this myself.)

7月5号他早上做完手术以后就匆匆跑到机场来接我，他说“it's so funny to see PanYu here”。看着他和Nadia在认真地讨论要点什么做午饭，我想说“it's so funny for you to complain u didn't have a girlfriend three years ago”。一件NUS百年校庆的T-shirt和一个中国旗袍式的小手机袋，他和Nadia能刚好各取所需，我真的非常开心。我还打探到，他们不久之后就会有小baby了，哈哈。明天就是星期天，照相机充好电，帮他们一起多照些像。(On July 5th, he rushed to the airport after doing an operation to see me, he said "it's so funny to see Pan Yu here". Looking at him and Nadia discussing seriously what to order for lunch, I would like to say "it's so funny for you to complain u didn't have a girlfriend three years ago". A NUS centenial T-shirt and a little Chinese craft, I was really happy that he and Nadia both found what they wanted. Whatsmore, I was told they are expecting a baby this December, haha. Tomorrow is Sunday, camera fully charged, I'll take a lot of pictures with them.)

不过，我更加盼望的是，不久之后的某一天，我，或者他能再次地说：“hey, it's so funny to see you here”。(However, what I am looking forward more is, one day not long from now, I or he will tell "hey, dude, it's so funny to see you here".)

一些得意的照片

2005-09-23T21:51:00.000+08:00

Posing

小“疯猫” (IE-proof, plz use Firefox/Opera)上贴上了几张陆陆续续在洛桑照的照片。这些风景都是在EPFL两公里范围内的，这里的城市里面居然有稻田和牧场，一种整洁的自然感。这是整个瑞士给人的感觉，即便是在驶于乡下的火车道旁，也是这种感觉。从瑞士到意大利，感觉像是从新加坡驶出了新山（当然，罗马是无可挑剔的）。

最近在佳能的网站上看到一个使用DSLR的Tutorial，这才开始了解了一些D70s的使用方法。Nikon的说明书以前看过2遍，术语一堆（看的时候没有字典，也没有网络），一头雾水，硬是不懂。相比之下，佳能的这个介绍，深入浅出的解释必须的几个基本术语，又搭配大量的例子，真是特别适合初学者。赞一下！

重拾

2005-09-23T16:31:00.000+08:00

张振杰转给同在NUS Ph.D.的同学的。看到研究蚂蚁的行为，仿佛看到了很小时候的自己，不知道有多少男孩子有过类似的经历。不同之处在于，我曾经的自信没有达到自负，而正因为这点，我对高中以前的应试教育还颇怀有好感，而我的高考并没有完全的失败。这种对从前的留恋造成的对制度的不完全决裂，或许就是自己现在漂浮心境的根源。大学的时候同样的痛恨照本宣科的课程，理想中有着自由思想和处处是天才的名校，现实中仅仅只是一个教书而非育人的灰灰的地方。自己努力过，但却没有能够始终坚持。

在这里贴出来，希望能和大家一起共勉。如果一生不能为理想而奋斗，自己将永远不能安宁。

清华梦的粉碎—写给清华大学的退学申请 2005.9.22

Living besides EPFL

2005-09-22T22:20:00.000+08:00

View outside hall window

坐落在洛桑西部的洛桑联邦理工大学（EFPL - Ecole Polytechnique Federale De Lausanne）风景秀丽。旁边相隔日内瓦湖的阿尔卑斯山脉在清爽的7、8月份清晰可人。我住的学生公寓在学校北面只有几百米的地方，每天步行只要10分钟就可以走到办公室。可惜现在接近10月份，天气两个星期内突然转凉（从24、5度到10度），风雨交加成了最近的主题。

Triaudes Student Hall

这个就是学生公寓的楼下入口处。在过来之前曾经在网页上面察看过这边的情形，建筑本身灰蒙蒙的，网页又做得很粗糙，当时看了以后心里面凉了半截。不过真实的情况却根本不是这样，貌似碉堡的外观内部整洁得一塌糊涂，虽然一开始卧室的床上连枕头床单也没有，哈哈（这可是和新加坡不一样啊）。这里所有学生都是单间，4个人一套房间，2个洗手间，厨房和吃饭的小厅。同住的有法国的Mathew（本科最后一年过来实习），乔丹的Fathi（读物流），还有伊朗的Navid（这个人是Stanford的EE，在寝室里进出非常快，有时是跑的）。这的缺点是，没有微波炉（但是有烤箱，我晕，搞得我经常买Pizza回来烤），还有就是一个单元只有一台洗衣机，居然还是投币的，而且只能投1块和20分的硬币？！

Modest

傍晚回宿舍的时候，一路上的人行道旁都是这种低着头的路灯，谦逊的照顾着自己脚下的一小片道路。为别人服务，在中国人的观念里面似乎不是什么值得夸耀的事情，不过，这个路灯人人都会喜欢，而且我还保有尊敬。为什么？因为如果它抬起头来，发出的光就会刺到行人的眼睛，而它始终没有那么做。

alva的背影

2005-09-22T20:20:00.000+08:00

Sight of Alva's back

6月30 号的晚上，我和Alva拿着各自的行李来到障宜机场，和平常不同的是，这次既不是我送她，也不是她送我。我11点多的飞机去瑞士，而她是凌晨1点多飞机回上海，而后去西藏。摆弄头天才到手的 D70s，虽然不会用，可也是东拍拍，西拍拍，反正有自动档。照片里面的Alva正在排队拿登机牌，前面的人好慢，而我又不能进去陪她。看着这个背影，似乎已经颇有了一些去旅行的打扮--束起的马尾辫，腰间的挎兜，垂肩的相机包和精干的钓鱼裤（很多口袋，哈哈），不免有些羡慕之情。这是我D70s的第一张满意的照片 :-D

这个晚上还是很戏剧化的，其实这个时候因为我的飞机在伦敦专机而我又没有该死的英国transit Visa已经推迟到了7月5号了。一个人去瑞士，习惯了有Alva为伴的生活，心里面不免有些伤感，推迟了5天，至少能送Alva上飞机，所以对我来说并不算坏。Alva拿到登机牌之后，我们在旁边的咖啡店里面坐到11点半。看着她出境，直到看不到，才匆匆推着行李去赶最后一班地铁。地铁开出机场，到达 interchange就不再往前了。出租车上面司机为我transit Visa的事情愤愤，我只是抱怨一下，借此摆脱有些失落的情绪。

Somewhere in time

7月底，拿到相机里Alva在西藏的照片。其中的这张，第一眼看到就整整看了10分钟。我在想，Alva当时身处其中会是什么样的感受呢？如果有天堂，那么下面的那条公路就是通往天堂的路吧。下次，Alva再回到那里的时候，我会站在她的身边。

工作 vs. 旅游

2005-09-22T19:38:00.000+08:00

我的生活并不是平衡的很好，往往是想起什么的时候就开始做什么。到瑞士已经2个半月了，本来希望工作进行的一切顺利的话，到现在这个时候已经差不多可以放假到处游玩了，不过事实并不是这个样子。从一开始到这边每天下午坐在炎热的办公室里面一边打瞌睡，一边还要假装努力的搜paper找问题，第一个月（从7 月6号到24号去意大利）可以说是一事无成，甚至连把问题缩小化的工作都没有完成。接下来从意大利带回来的腹泻又闹了一个多星期。8月份的时候压力特别大，感觉一切都浮在空中，中间终于在旷了一个星期工以后给家里面打电话诉说了一把，在爸爸妈妈的支持和开导下，重新又有了些动力，之后在9月初的时候，终于想到用笨笨的线性规划把问题描述了出来。现在一切都在进行中，虽然速度缓慢，不过每天都会有一点结果出来，和Laura有话可谈。

旅游的计划现在不敢奢求，我的申根签证早已过期（本来意大利就只给了20天），只希望能把洛桑能去能了解的地方都去过，去日内瓦和Raza聚一聚（他刚刚交了PhD Thesis），有机会再能到阿尔卑斯山的某处看看草地，就满足了。少了很多奢求，心里简单了很多。

在这边的和在意大利的一些照片，会陆陆续续的整理上传到“一只疯猫”下面。由于某些奇怪的原因，IE并不能很好的显示（view source可以。。。），刚好给了我一个彻底抛弃IE的理由:-D

D70s -- Passion Reloaded

2005-09-21T13:43:00.000+08:00

Nikon D70s

憋了将近两年的怒气终于在公元2005年6月29号的这个星期三全部的释放了出来，结果就是以一个月的全部工资抱回了这个曾经垂涎了1年多的DSLR Camera。上一个DC，也就是在数码相机刚刚成为热门消费产品的2002年11月，喊着“不要最烂，只要最便宜”的口号买下的Fujifilm Finepix A303，也从此在我的仇恨列表里面消失了。哈哈:-D

其实早在一年多前就开始在D70上面展开不屈不挠的思想斗争了，不过煎熬归煎熬，始终还是没有下决心买下来。一来太贵，二来貌似没有什么迫切的需要。前两次去美国的时候，都是借的小萍同学LAB里面的牛机，特别第二次，体积庞大的Fujifilm Finepix 602S真正让我体验到了一台好DC的重要性（无论是在性能方面还是在外观 - 照相时候的pose方面）。在DSLR没有盛行的时代，602S的大镜头和类单反取景方式（也可以用LCD）还是蛮震撼的。至少自那次以后，我的思想斗争越发激烈啦，哈哈。

这次下决心的主要原因有两个，一个是我要到瑞士实习三个月，其间可能会有机会游历欧洲各国，向小萍借LAB的东西3个月不还实在太过分了；再一个就是小艳这次突然决定放假回家和他爸爸去西藏玩。当我还在第一个理由上犹豫不决的时候，第二个理由在天平的一边“咣”地砸了块石头，所以就在小艳回国前的一天，跑了N家断货了的店之后，再次在Chinatown的MaxPhoto买了这个D70s宝宝。

小艳回国20天，满载着西藏山水的相机终于在7月23号顺利抵达意大利，被同去一个夏令营的labmate小胖子Ram交到我手里。自此开始了我的狂拍旅程。

一个人出行

2005-01-11T10:37:00.000+08:00

看过黄汇blog上的迷路记，颇为喷饭，同时回想起自己独自出行的经历，就写了点comment，慢慢补充。

迷路记：http://spaces.msn.com/members/huih/Blog/cns!1pc3OOZ3k7mqcb88e_-hmv6A!257.entry

Comment:
写的很有趣啊。一个人在异乡独自出行确实是不容易，迷路是常有的事情，还有就是怕碰到坏人。我到美国去的时候在城里走到比较偏远的地方最怕看见的就是黑人，经常两个一群三个一伙的在路边闲逛，还有那些全部家当都在一辆小推车里面的街头流浪汉（通常会上来问你有没有change，我一开始还以为是找我换零钱，只差没说我只有100元的你要不要了）。出华盛顿长途汽车站时被外面聚集的一帮开黑车的（没有执照的出租车）缠到了，这些人有很多是战争里面的伤兵，退伍以后也不求上进，一心只想等政府救济，政府又一拖再拖，他们也就沦为了一群没钱没势力又没有生活目标的人了。和其中一个人聊了一会儿，给了他两块钱信息费，终于摆脱了。在纽约中央火车站的时候还遇到一个专门为别人开门的乞丐，我觉得他很有礼貌，就上去和他说话，他说不要钱，只要点吃的，我给他一包奥利奥的饼干他也只要了3块。

Fur-elise about to finish

2004-10-29T21:21:00.000+08:00

It has been 3 months since I grabbed the electronic organ from Zhou Zhi, the one he used to enter the palace of music but not enough for further advancement. Before I carry it back, he said, "fur-elise, that's the first piece I played". Fur-elise, the tiny elegant piece by Beethoven, although not my favorate, but probably the first classic piece I heard when I was a small boy. I decided to crack it FIRST. Searched on the omnipotent google, the score found was supprisingly 3 pages long. Except for the familiar "3#23#237216", two other parts come along to form the complete piece. Also, I found a midi version and listened to it again and again while practicing to get the feeling as well as the rhythm.

The hard things as a beginer are left hand, two hands conversation and the rhythm. I played accordion for a few years in primary school, so right hand is not a big problem. But I really cannot remember how to get the two hands work together, and the left hand needs more concentration otherwise it will be left behind. However, every skill can be learned, the only difference is how fast you learn it. I practiced many times either hand separately until the upper and the lower score could naturally flow. Then kept the rhythm slow and looked for the feeling of two hands conversation. Gradually, I found I already can play the first part which does not require two hands to talk a lot at the same time. Although simple, the success was a great inspiration. Now, after 3 months playing once and a while, the difficult and fast second part is almost finished. The 3rd part requires to control the rhythm steady and show enough strength, but not that skill required, i believe i can master it within a few tries. :D

I must say that life tastes very good if you can play some piano, in fact, very musical.

你是我的女朋友就好了

2004-10-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

某一天，实验室，小艳和其他人在说话，我在编程。说到得意处，笑得很开心，样子可爱极了。突然间我却有一种很奇妙（可能是奇怪吧）的感觉，竟然在想“她是我的女朋友就好了”。每每以初识她那时的感觉去看，觉得认识她真是我的幸运。小艳，是世界上最可爱的人吧。

海边小餐

2004-10-15T11:44:00.000+08:00

So colorful dinner

东海岸，和葛鸿老人与刘霞（之女朋友）一道前往。先骑车（双人车），后小餐。骑车至某观景台前，睹一人正驭一风筝，风筝甚是高级，双手驭之可控方向。那人见有人观赏，便来了兴致，大耍风筝翻湫板，十几圈过后，余本以为风筝会因搅线落地，未想到那人竟能反方向控制，又绕了回去。阿拉叹为观止，也就忘了照相，可惜可惜。兴后至某某海鲜楼小食一把，图为菜，四人吃后竟有回去再吃方便面之冲动，直至后来又点几个油炸小馒头才勉强应付。哈哈

第二次的第一次

2004-10-15T10:45:00.000+08:00

题目比较奇怪，但感觉很好玩吧！又见周智的blog，离上次有一段时间了，那上面已经有了更多更充实的内容。上次看过之后，兴冲冲的在blogger建立了一个账户，可是后来却一直也没有上来过，到刚刚又萌发了相同的念头的时候，却想不起the magic user/passwd pair了。决心这次会坚持下去，所以第二次建立了这个blog。不过这只是起这个题目的一部分原因。还有一部分原因是因为上次在从新加坡到华盛顿的飞机上看了一部电影，叫"50 First Dates"，说的是花花公子henry爱上女孩lucy，lucy因为一次车祸，大脑受到了损伤，虽然看起来与常人无异，但她的记忆只能保持一天。也就是说，lucy始终生活在车祸发生前的一天，无论一天当中发生什么，第二天醒过来的时候，又像录像带倒带一样的回到了前一天的记忆。当然，lucy每天第一次见到henry的时候，henry都是一个陌生人。但henry强就强在他能每天都通过不同的方式赢得lucy的爱。里面lucy有句很经典的话，就是"nothing beats the first kiss"，当然从影片的题目看来，应该说了至少50遍以上。henry的坚持不懈和乐观的态度很让人感动。当然，对于我来说，坚持不懈指的是坚持不懈地在blog上post！That's how this title comes from! :D